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6 Signs Someone Grew Up With Depression [World Mental Health Day]
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Date: 2023-08-20
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Quantum
The problem is that everyone wants me to be at fault for everything that has ever been a 'real' problem in my life, but i absolutely refuse to blame myself for anything that is not Actually my fault. When i screw up, i claim it, i own it, i don't try to pretend that anything that was actually up to me, wasn't my fault. People get upset when i won't claim things that are not my fault, and they immediately treat me like i'm blaming anything but myself for my problems, when that has never been true, and is a gross antithetical mischaracterization of who and what i am, and how i operate, and they proceed to treat me like the opposite of what i am, and often passive-aggressively sabotage me, or simply perceive me through a false bias resulting from their preference of imagining that i am somehow at fault for things beyond my control, and things other people are actually responsible for doing. Since a very young age, i have integrated a priority to make sure that i am not doing anything to unduly diminish anyone else. And yet, everyone acts like that's all i've ever done. Sure, i've made mistakes, no one is perfect, but if a lifetime of striving to ensure i do not cause any undue detriment to anyone at all, is somehow twisted into blaming everyone but myself, then idk how to live with that, and i am tired of how it feels. I have been tired of it for a very, very long time.
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The problem is that everyone wants me to be at fault for everything that has ever been a 'real' problem in my life, but i absolutely refuse to blame myself for anything that is not Actually my fault. When i screw up, i claim it, i own it, i don't try to pretend that anything that was actually up to me, wasn't my fault. People get upset when i won't claim things that are not my fault, and they immediately treat me like i'm blaming anything but myself for my problems, when that has never been true, and is a gross antithetical mischaracterization of who and what i am, and how i operate, and they proceed to treat me like the opposite of what i am, and often passive-aggressively sabotage me, or simply perceive me through a false bias resulting from their preference of imagining that i am somehow at fault for things beyond my control, and things other people are actually responsible for doing. Since a very young age, i have integrated a priority to make sure that i am not doing anything to unduly diminish anyone else. And yet, everyone acts like that's all i've ever done. Sure, i've made mistakes, no one is perfect, but if a lifetime of striving to ensure i do not cause any undue detriment to anyone at all, is somehow twisted into blaming everyone but myself, then idk how to live with that, and i am tired of how it feels. I have been tired of it for a very, very long time.
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RuoYan
I was diagnosed with depression when I was 5 years old. Which didn't help that I have other illness like ADHD, Anxiety, anger and abandonment issues. I dealt with this until now. My parents tried taking me to a therapist but each time I go I never talk to them I close up and huddle near my ma. Each therapist gave up or saying she's a lost caused. So I never got help. I usually become so spacey that I go on auto pilot and forget everything. It really showed in middle school where I started having random stabbing pains and migraines. I started getting more suicidal too. But now I just keep it hidden to try to stay away from anything that deals with depression. It got to the point where my parents don't think I have depression anymore. Each time a seek help I become a different person that doesn't want to say anything. When I'm not depressed I became a another person that forgets the depression. Each time I cycle through each phase I forget everything that I did. At this point I give up seeking help.
-do not reply I don't want to remember that I said this it is on impulse that I don't have control on
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I was diagnosed with depression when I was 5 years old. Which didn't help that I have other illness like ADHD, Anxiety, anger and abandonment issues. I dealt with this until now. My parents tried taking me to a therapist but each time I go I never talk to them I close up and huddle near my ma. Each therapist gave up or saying she's a lost caused. So I never got help. I usually become so spacey that I go on auto pilot and forget everything. It really showed in middle school where I started having random stabbing pains and migraines. I started getting more suicidal too. But now I just keep it hidden to try to stay away from anything that deals with depression. It got to the point where my parents don't think I have depression anymore. Each time a seek help I become a different person that doesn't want to say anything. When I'm not depressed I became a another person that forgets the depression. Each time I cycle through each phase I forget everything that I did. At this point I give up seeking help.
-do not reply I don't want to remember that I said this it is on impulse that I don't have control on
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Joseph
I really wish I had a good friend. I didnt interact with anyone before I started school, and dont remember much from that time. After I started school in kindergarten, I socialized and made friends. But after 3rd grade, I moved. I had to restart with making friends, but it was fourth grade, and I was still in that timeframe where you interact with everyone and build friendships. In that new school, I was in a group of friends, being the short one. But then I moved again. I am currently halfway through the first year in this new school. I can still contact those from my friend group, but I have no contact with those back at my first school. I cant help but think that I might never have a close friend, or close enough to be a best friend. I am currently in high school, which is much more difficult to make new friends. I want to have a best friend, but without knowing them long, its not easy.
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I really wish I had a good friend. I didnt interact with anyone before I started school, and dont remember much from that time. After I started school in kindergarten, I socialized and made friends. But after 3rd grade, I moved. I had to restart with making friends, but it was fourth grade, and I was still in that timeframe where you interact with everyone and build friendships. In that new school, I was in a group of friends, being the short one. But then I moved again. I am currently halfway through the first year in this new school. I can still contact those from my friend group, but I have no contact with those back at my first school. I cant help but think that I might never have a close friend, or close enough to be a best friend. I am currently in high school, which is much more difficult to make new friends. I want to have a best friend, but without knowing them long, its not easy.
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Trees
I opened up to my parents when I was 8-12 and told me that I was overreacting and dont need help, I hid it for so long Im not sure if Im am or not, my parents dont really think Im depressed and Im too young to be. I told them depression has no age and they laughed. who am I to think that I am. I threatened them that I will kill myself and the looked at me from head to toe, and gave me a gadet(my phone) and to watch, Im not sure if I should tell them my problems anymore. but when I saw this I broke out in tears and they saw me and. didnt reply. but as a fellow person, dont let your parents or close people control your actions.
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here have a cupcake
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I opened up to my parents when I was 8-12 and told me that I was overreacting and dont need help, I hid it for so long Im not sure if Im am or not, my parents dont really think Im depressed and Im too young to be. I told them depression has no age and they laughed. who am I to think that I am. I threatened them that I will kill myself and the looked at me from head to toe, and gave me a gadet(my phone) and to watch, Im not sure if I should tell them my problems anymore. but when I saw this I broke out in tears and they saw me and. didnt reply. but as a fellow person, dont let your parents or close people control your actions.
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here have a cupcake
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InvisibleWanderer
I was six and already in bed for the night. My father was in bed in my parent's room. My mom was in the kitchen cutting a bagel and she slipped and cut a deep gash into her thumb. My father starting arguing with my mom about it. Who knows why. I laid in bed, scared as hell, and continued to think that I could fix the problem by giving both of my parents some of my blood. I am so screwed up to this day. Being an HSP and an Empath, I've never been right. Depression and anxiety. Too, too many bad memories of emotional and verbal abuse. Too many feelings from strangers. Seeing things that others don't see. A gift and a curse at the same time.
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I was six and already in bed for the night. My father was in bed in my parent's room. My mom was in the kitchen cutting a bagel and she slipped and cut a deep gash into her thumb. My father starting arguing with my mom about it. Who knows why. I laid in bed, scared as hell, and continued to think that I could fix the problem by giving both of my parents some of my blood. I am so screwed up to this day. Being an HSP and an Empath, I've never been right. Depression and anxiety. Too, too many bad memories of emotional and verbal abuse. Too many feelings from strangers. Seeing things that others don't see. A gift and a curse at the same time.
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Zorua
I blame myself only when I AM to blame. I generally have a high pain tolerance, but that's because I used to injure myself in the past, and I always thought my pain was caused by my height. Mainly because I punched or kicked either a hard object or myself in some way when losing my temper and trying to calm down. I prefer to be alone, and I actually don't mind being with friends or making them. Ah, motivation. I need it, but nothing interests me anymore. My future isn't bright and my path is dark, but I'm still going to walk it.
I hope I can get feedback, but meh. It is only a choice and we all have choices, like I chose to write this.
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I blame myself only when I AM to blame. I generally have a high pain tolerance, but that's because I used to injure myself in the past, and I always thought my pain was caused by my height. Mainly because I punched or kicked either a hard object or myself in some way when losing my temper and trying to calm down. I prefer to be alone, and I actually don't mind being with friends or making them. Ah, motivation. I need it, but nothing interests me anymore. My future isn't bright and my path is dark, but I'm still going to walk it.
I hope I can get feedback, but meh. It is only a choice and we all have choices, like I chose to write this.
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Stelita
This is my husband 100% and this helped me too understand a little more. I've seen people walking away and abandoning him because he has been like this since he was a teenager because of all and he is still an amazing person. It hurts when other don't put an effort while the person is struggling. But I will always be there to grab his hand and remind him to keep going forward or be there with him when he needs a break. because its not easy at all. And I will say this to anyone, ALWAYS THERE IS SOMEONE TO HELP, EVEN TO JUST SIT BY YOUR SIDE IN SILENCE FOR YOU NOT TO GO THROUGH IT ALONE. You are not alone. I will be there for you too
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This is my husband 100% and this helped me too understand a little more. I've seen people walking away and abandoning him because he has been like this since he was a teenager because of all and he is still an amazing person. It hurts when other don't put an effort while the person is struggling. But I will always be there to grab his hand and remind him to keep going forward or be there with him when he needs a break. because its not easy at all. And I will say this to anyone, ALWAYS THERE IS SOMEONE TO HELP, EVEN TO JUST SIT BY YOUR SIDE IN SILENCE FOR YOU NOT TO GO THROUGH IT ALONE. You are not alone. I will be there for you too
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RayDHD
Thank you for this video, I am someone that has lived with depression since I was a kid (I'm 21 now) and finally got diagnosed with MDD when I was 20. It's been really hard and I honesty don't see a future for myself or care about doing things for my future self, like making money from a job to support myself. But I force myself to do something, anything. Just me playing video games is fun to me and it makes me happy, it also passes the time by. You're right, we all need to do something that atleast makes us happy. I hope anyone that reads this will keep doing the things they do to be happy, and that we're all going to be fine!
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Thank you for this video, I am someone that has lived with depression since I was a kid (I'm 21 now) and finally got diagnosed with MDD when I was 20. It's been really hard and I honesty don't see a future for myself or care about doing things for my future self, like making money from a job to support myself. But I force myself to do something, anything. Just me playing video games is fun to me and it makes me happy, it also passes the time by. You're right, we all need to do something that atleast makes us happy. I hope anyone that reads this will keep doing the things they do to be happy, and that we're all going to be fine!
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Ronin
Worth to mention in my opinion is the increased pain tolerance! Because constant self blame, and self hate, depressive people tend to ignore pain, because the think themself not worthy to be cured, or just paid attention. I suffered trough five or six days of kindey cramp from kidney stones without any medication or painkillers, cause' I just don't cared enough of myself or my well-being. I remembered that I constantly telling myself; this is nothing. you live trough worse. and the fact, that hurt so much is leaded to more self-blaming. Because you know yourself the best, the inner voice can be really ruthles to you.
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Worth to mention in my opinion is the increased pain tolerance! Because constant self blame, and self hate, depressive people tend to ignore pain, because the think themself not worthy to be cured, or just paid attention. I suffered trough five or six days of kindey cramp from kidney stones without any medication or painkillers, cause' I just don't cared enough of myself or my well-being. I remembered that I constantly telling myself; this is nothing. you live trough worse. and the fact, that hurt so much is leaded to more self-blaming. Because you know yourself the best, the inner voice can be really ruthles to you.
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Leyla
i remember my therapist once told me:
people around your same group of age that didnt go through any kind of trauma, had an absolute advantage and privilege over you. your brain was focused on physical and psychological survival, while they were free to grow up and develop themselves in every single angle of their lives. you may feel like youre late to things they already know how to overcome, but thats because you were trying your best to survive. its not your fault.
and it really made me understand a lot of things so i just wanted to share it with yall. please stay safe.
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i remember my therapist once told me:
people around your same group of age that didnt go through any kind of trauma, had an absolute advantage and privilege over you. your brain was focused on physical and psychological survival, while they were free to grow up and develop themselves in every single angle of their lives. you may feel like youre late to things they already know how to overcome, but thats because you were trying your best to survive. its not your fault.
and it really made me understand a lot of things so i just wanted to share it with yall. please stay safe.
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Marie
I grew up With depression, had it since I was 12, including suicidal thoughts. I never blamed myself though, because I was abused by someone in my family, someone who should've been taking care of me. I always blamed them for my mental state. I managed going without professional help until I was 23, that's when things got extremely bad and I wasn't able to juggle my education, part time job and abusive household at the same time. So, please, if you're struggling with depression and suicidal thoughts, please see a professional! You're worth it, you deserve to be happy.
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I grew up With depression, had it since I was 12, including suicidal thoughts. I never blamed myself though, because I was abused by someone in my family, someone who should've been taking care of me. I always blamed them for my mental state. I managed going without professional help until I was 23, that's when things got extremely bad and I wasn't able to juggle my education, part time job and abusive household at the same time. So, please, if you're struggling with depression and suicidal thoughts, please see a professional! You're worth it, you deserve to be happy.
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Posthumanism
I literally did. I got bullied pretty bad in grade school and tried to commit suicide by age 11. I never told anyone i was bullied and pretended i was okay ever since and my parents just thought I was just a shy person. Granted they had to deal with my brother who has special needs they really couldn't pay attention to me. I never knew i was depressed growing up in my teenage years but it really did affect my ability to make friends and socialize with others. Barely now in my 30s am i looking for help because I really understand i need it now
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I literally did. I got bullied pretty bad in grade school and tried to commit suicide by age 11. I never told anyone i was bullied and pretended i was okay ever since and my parents just thought I was just a shy person. Granted they had to deal with my brother who has special needs they really couldn't pay attention to me. I never knew i was depressed growing up in my teenage years but it really did affect my ability to make friends and socialize with others. Barely now in my 30s am i looking for help because I really understand i need it now
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Party
The pains I can relate. It's been two years that I realized everytime something bad happens in work (and it's always linked with my shitty colleagues) I have really painful backaches, to the point I had to go to an osteopath for the first time in my life because I couldn't even walk without screaming in pain. It tends to go away fast once I begin to work on myself mentally. I have sometimes gloomy moments when the first thought I have when waking up is What dick move is waiting for me today? Thankfully, it's not always like that.
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The pains I can relate. It's been two years that I realized everytime something bad happens in work (and it's always linked with my shitty colleagues) I have really painful backaches, to the point I had to go to an osteopath for the first time in my life because I couldn't even walk without screaming in pain. It tends to go away fast once I begin to work on myself mentally. I have sometimes gloomy moments when the first thought I have when waking up is What dick move is waiting for me today? Thankfully, it's not always like that.
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ZaraTheCatMaid5928
The sad part is I relate to all of it and this helped in a small way. A thing that I get when I think of depression is if life is important if this is what I really need and honestly most other people definitely need this as well as I do. The biggest point of depression for my sake was I always pushed myself into no impulsiveness and that was a main rule for me I went through and it was hard. Anyway I hope I figure out what is troubling me and hopefully help the therapists and scientists fix this nightmare.
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The sad part is I relate to all of it and this helped in a small way. A thing that I get when I think of depression is if life is important if this is what I really need and honestly most other people definitely need this as well as I do. The biggest point of depression for my sake was I always pushed myself into no impulsiveness and that was a main rule for me I went through and it was hard. Anyway I hope I figure out what is troubling me and hopefully help the therapists and scientists fix this nightmare.
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Cristian
I had all of this. i'm way better now, the physical pain without cause and the lack of motivation sticked with me for years after being released by my doctor (she was amazing, i own a lot to her, i hope she's doing ok)
I used to joke around saying that existing was painful because i thought that feeling like that was normal, i'm glad my friends didn't leave me alone even though i was unreachable back in the day, they picked me up when i couldn't stand for myself anymore and thanks to them. i'm still here
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I had all of this. i'm way better now, the physical pain without cause and the lack of motivation sticked with me for years after being released by my doctor (she was amazing, i own a lot to her, i hope she's doing ok)
I used to joke around saying that existing was painful because i thought that feeling like that was normal, i'm glad my friends didn't leave me alone even though i was unreachable back in the day, they picked me up when i couldn't stand for myself anymore and thanks to them. i'm still here
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Dr
I have grown up watching my mother dealing with so much hardships, financial issues and even betrayal and mistreated by her own relatives. she only has us and dad. but my dad has faced the same too. So, I have never been open about my problems. to anyone. I keep it in and will continue till the day I crash. I don't want to bother anyone around.
I have always been feeling out of place. and lonely since the time I can remember. why is it always me who feels like a trash all the time.
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I have grown up watching my mother dealing with so much hardships, financial issues and even betrayal and mistreated by her own relatives. she only has us and dad. but my dad has faced the same too. So, I have never been open about my problems. to anyone. I keep it in and will continue till the day I crash. I don't want to bother anyone around.
I have always been feeling out of place. and lonely since the time I can remember. why is it always me who feels like a trash all the time.
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Libue
I had a friend, that was indicative of all the sings in this video. I tried to help him, but he didn't want anyone to help him, because his parents ruined him that much, he had the most negativistic view on the world I've ever seen. I felt guilty for a long time, that I couln't help, but now I understant that it was impossible. So, for everyone who couln't help: It's okay, sometimes people don't want to. Don't blame yourself for not being able to do something impossible.
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I had a friend, that was indicative of all the sings in this video. I tried to help him, but he didn't want anyone to help him, because his parents ruined him that much, he had the most negativistic view on the world I've ever seen. I felt guilty for a long time, that I couln't help, but now I understant that it was impossible. So, for everyone who couln't help: It's okay, sometimes people don't want to. Don't blame yourself for not being able to do something impossible.
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Chara
I have suffered from depression for years. I think this ruined a part of my life. And worst-a significant part of my youngest years. I blame circumstances created by certain people. That's why I get really annoyed when they say life is what you make it this is not how it is. If you have been scrwed up by people and circumstances then you can't achieve what you should have, or at least it gets really difficult, if not completely impossible.
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I have suffered from depression for years. I think this ruined a part of my life. And worst-a significant part of my youngest years. I blame circumstances created by certain people. That's why I get really annoyed when they say life is what you make it this is not how it is. If you have been scrwed up by people and circumstances then you can't achieve what you should have, or at least it gets really difficult, if not completely impossible.
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Eric
Here's where I say ha ha. Because I feel hopeless. But it not because of a rando not liking me over one instantce, it because I've been told how the next 15 years of my life is going to be, and because of justice, it might actually be incrementally more brutal.
Thus, I have no hope to try anything but being quiet. In order that I can hold that in 15 years I can try again to build a life in which I'm a part.
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Here's where I say ha ha. Because I feel hopeless. But it not because of a rando not liking me over one instantce, it because I've been told how the next 15 years of my life is going to be, and because of justice, it might actually be incrementally more brutal.
Thus, I have no hope to try anything but being quiet. In order that I can hold that in 15 years I can try again to build a life in which I'm a part.
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Akhil
For the longest time I had all the signs of depression not just from this video but from other tests too but my parents never noticed and neither did I, they kept blaming me for their problems and the way I acted to situations, being ungrateful and all.
But as absurd as it might sound, I got the strength to love myself for whatever I am and stop my parent's negativity from getting to me by watching naruto
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For the longest time I had all the signs of depression not just from this video but from other tests too but my parents never noticed and neither did I, they kept blaming me for their problems and the way I acted to situations, being ungrateful and all.
But as absurd as it might sound, I got the strength to love myself for whatever I am and stop my parent's negativity from getting to me by watching naruto
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ElvenNeko
I have all, but it does not matter because words do not mean anything for me, i find no comfort in them. That is ironic, because core of my problems lies in the fact that people like me are unwanted in any society, and people won't find 15 minutes in their lives to review the work of my life. Being different and disabled instantly locks all doors behind you, and people pretend that you do not exist.
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I have all, but it does not matter because words do not mean anything for me, i find no comfort in them. That is ironic, because core of my problems lies in the fact that people like me are unwanted in any society, and people won't find 15 minutes in their lives to review the work of my life. Being different and disabled instantly locks all doors behind you, and people pretend that you do not exist.
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Karen
I was a shy, quiet kid and treated poorly by like kids who cliched. I became passive / agressive as the eldest child getting thrown into situations at home or school that I was not properly trained for. As an adult I'm now a pissed off aggressive. As I have grown from experience and the upcoming generations have not; I'm in shock how they will openly blast people and not think of the consequences.
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I was a shy, quiet kid and treated poorly by like kids who cliched. I became passive / agressive as the eldest child getting thrown into situations at home or school that I was not properly trained for. As an adult I'm now a pissed off aggressive. As I have grown from experience and the upcoming generations have not; I'm in shock how they will openly blast people and not think of the consequences.
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Niki
I have lived through a lot of those things, I still can't figure out how to deal with the extreme anger that hurts everyone around. How can that be dealt with? And one more thing growing up with depression. having to remember who you were before depression. Personality should have been formed during those years spent in depression, so that is tricky there too.
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I have lived through a lot of those things, I still can't figure out how to deal with the extreme anger that hurts everyone around. How can that be dealt with? And one more thing growing up with depression. having to remember who you were before depression. Personality should have been formed during those years spent in depression, so that is tricky there too.
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Valeria
13 years with depression. I thought it was normal having this 6/6 + others issues, and It was so hard, so many times. But finally I started to rise, something like a long rebirth. These last 5 years were amazing! even with a pandemic in the middle, because I feel free even in lockdown. I had some troubles, of course, but is different than depression. :)
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13 years with depression. I thought it was normal having this 6/6 + others issues, and It was so hard, so many times. But finally I started to rise, something like a long rebirth. These last 5 years were amazing! even with a pandemic in the middle, because I feel free even in lockdown. I had some troubles, of course, but is different than depression. :)
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tsuba
I'm not sure if feeling stuck, with no hope for the future, is a sign of depression. or just realism?
Just LOOK at the society we're living in!
How can you tell someone with depression from someone who's well aware of the terrible situation we're in?
I'd say happy people have their heads buried in the sand, that's all.
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I'm not sure if feeling stuck, with no hope for the future, is a sign of depression. or just realism?
Just LOOK at the society we're living in!
How can you tell someone with depression from someone who's well aware of the terrible situation we're in?
I'd say happy people have their heads buried in the sand, that's all.
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