7 Signs Youre Depressed, Not Ungrateful
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Date: 2023-08-20
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bedpotato
Honestly, idk how long I've been feeling symptoms of depression. I'm really in a self-hatred type episode right now (maybe because I recently realized I was trans and that really makes dysphoria worse once you know what it is, so I can't appreciate this right now. I feel blank and empty and really can't look forward to anything, even Halloween, anymore. When I do, it manifests as feeling horribly unhappy that it's not happening right now, which sounds so ungrateful.
The worst thing is that there's literally no reason for me to have all these criticisms in my head. Nobody says them. None of this stuff comes from other people. When I think I'm too young to have depression, nobody's said that to me. Only I have.
I don't want to seek help because I'm a kid. I refuse to tell my parents until I'm older. I hate living like this but sometimes I hope it gets worse. A lot of times, I hope it gets worse. I want to be miserable. For this reason, I feel like I'm faking it and just lied to myself enough so that I believe it.
I do consider that occasionally. I don't because I'm too lazy, I don't want to work for it.
I sometimes consider sh, but don't for the same reason I don't commit that.
I can't cry. I don't know why, but I can't cry even when I really want to.
I just feel empty.
I don't feel anymore.
I've never said all this to anyone, because my amazing friends and family who I'm so lucky to have would tell me that I need to go to therapy. They'd get worried about me. I don't want to show anyone anything but happiness, I don't want to make anyone unhappy or worried about me.
Even when I was around 9, I thought that nobody liked me and they were just pretending whenever I got mad.
At 5, I used to pinch myself hard when I got in trouble, as a punishment of sorts.
I hope no one sees this, I just wanted to write it all down and bring some of my feelings to light to myself. Please don't be worried about me.
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Honestly, idk how long I've been feeling symptoms of depression. I'm really in a self-hatred type episode right now (maybe because I recently realized I was trans and that really makes dysphoria worse once you know what it is, so I can't appreciate this right now. I feel blank and empty and really can't look forward to anything, even Halloween, anymore. When I do, it manifests as feeling horribly unhappy that it's not happening right now, which sounds so ungrateful.
The worst thing is that there's literally no reason for me to have all these criticisms in my head. Nobody says them. None of this stuff comes from other people. When I think I'm too young to have depression, nobody's said that to me. Only I have.
I don't want to seek help because I'm a kid. I refuse to tell my parents until I'm older. I hate living like this but sometimes I hope it gets worse. A lot of times, I hope it gets worse. I want to be miserable. For this reason, I feel like I'm faking it and just lied to myself enough so that I believe it.
I do consider that occasionally. I don't because I'm too lazy, I don't want to work for it.
I sometimes consider sh, but don't for the same reason I don't commit that.
I can't cry. I don't know why, but I can't cry even when I really want to.
I just feel empty.
I don't feel anymore.
I've never said all this to anyone, because my amazing friends and family who I'm so lucky to have would tell me that I need to go to therapy. They'd get worried about me. I don't want to show anyone anything but happiness, I don't want to make anyone unhappy or worried about me.
Even when I was around 9, I thought that nobody liked me and they were just pretending whenever I got mad.
At 5, I used to pinch myself hard when I got in trouble, as a punishment of sorts.
I hope no one sees this, I just wanted to write it all down and bring some of my feelings to light to myself. Please don't be worried about me.
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Lindzie
I have mine just last year, im an introvert and i barely get lonely alone but during pandemic the pressure i had with my father and the people around me really gets into me. My dad and i had a fight coz he keeps on accussing me on something that i didnt do and i receive lots of words i didnt expect my own dad will say so i just accept it but the hardest thing is he wants to control my feelings like i dont have to cry, i dont need to have my own time alone, the simple things i enjoyed like watching in my phone becomes lessen coz he also ask why im doing that, then i started not wanting to eat with them coz i feel pressured that even im eating i cant enjoy it nor taste it well so it goes on and for just a month my weight becomes less and less then im always crying alone and even lots of people say to snap out of it its not easy, i also have lots of pain in my body without knowing why. And when i had my limit coz my dad really pressured and cornered me i run away from home in 1 month i stayed with my sisterinlaw and gladly i started overcoming it and even my body got well and didnt experience the sudden pain, i walk in the nature with their dogs, and with my nephew and just forget those events. Im back now in the house and anothet help for me is there are people who are just there ready to listen and didnt procrastinate or judge me, they just chat and ask if i need anything and just talk when they have time.
Depression and anxiety is hard i didnt know i would experience it coz they say im a fighter and have my own world but it really affects you especially if the cause is just there near you. We need time to overcome it on our own it can be speed up just like what they say. We need to connect within ourselves to overcome it ourselves.
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I have mine just last year, im an introvert and i barely get lonely alone but during pandemic the pressure i had with my father and the people around me really gets into me. My dad and i had a fight coz he keeps on accussing me on something that i didnt do and i receive lots of words i didnt expect my own dad will say so i just accept it but the hardest thing is he wants to control my feelings like i dont have to cry, i dont need to have my own time alone, the simple things i enjoyed like watching in my phone becomes lessen coz he also ask why im doing that, then i started not wanting to eat with them coz i feel pressured that even im eating i cant enjoy it nor taste it well so it goes on and for just a month my weight becomes less and less then im always crying alone and even lots of people say to snap out of it its not easy, i also have lots of pain in my body without knowing why. And when i had my limit coz my dad really pressured and cornered me i run away from home in 1 month i stayed with my sisterinlaw and gladly i started overcoming it and even my body got well and didnt experience the sudden pain, i walk in the nature with their dogs, and with my nephew and just forget those events. Im back now in the house and anothet help for me is there are people who are just there ready to listen and didnt procrastinate or judge me, they just chat and ask if i need anything and just talk when they have time.
Depression and anxiety is hard i didnt know i would experience it coz they say im a fighter and have my own world but it really affects you especially if the cause is just there near you. We need time to overcome it on our own it can be speed up just like what they say. We need to connect within ourselves to overcome it ourselves.
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Laurie
OMG! I want my partner to watch this video, although I feel that it won't help them fully grasp what it is that I deal with on a daily basis. Towards the end of this video, I literally started crying because THIS IS ME & this is what I have tried so many times to explain to my partner. Every time she tells me, I just don't know why you're always so sad. I mean, you have so much to be thankful for. My reply to her is always, There is no why. If there was, I would be working on changing it. But there is never just one thing that causes me to get like this. I've tried ignoring my feelings when I get this way and I've tried to change my thinking when negative thoughts happen. I've tried bottling up my emotions because I know that nobody wants to hear about it and nobody wants to be around someone who is always negative. That just makes it worse. I've even told her that all I was asking of her was that she just tell me, It's ok to feel what you're feeling. I'm here to listen and not pass judgement. But what I get is, I'm so tired of hearing about how sad you are when you have no reason to be sad. I don't think you understand just how good your life is. My life is great on paper. I know that my life is picture perfect in comparison to a lot of people I have in my life. However, it's not my life that is the issue. it's the way my mind will distort things and I'm constantly at war over what's true and what my head is trying to make me believe.
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OMG! I want my partner to watch this video, although I feel that it won't help them fully grasp what it is that I deal with on a daily basis. Towards the end of this video, I literally started crying because THIS IS ME & this is what I have tried so many times to explain to my partner. Every time she tells me, I just don't know why you're always so sad. I mean, you have so much to be thankful for. My reply to her is always, There is no why. If there was, I would be working on changing it. But there is never just one thing that causes me to get like this. I've tried ignoring my feelings when I get this way and I've tried to change my thinking when negative thoughts happen. I've tried bottling up my emotions because I know that nobody wants to hear about it and nobody wants to be around someone who is always negative. That just makes it worse. I've even told her that all I was asking of her was that she just tell me, It's ok to feel what you're feeling. I'm here to listen and not pass judgement. But what I get is, I'm so tired of hearing about how sad you are when you have no reason to be sad. I don't think you understand just how good your life is. My life is great on paper. I know that my life is picture perfect in comparison to a lot of people I have in my life. However, it's not my life that is the issue. it's the way my mind will distort things and I'm constantly at war over what's true and what my head is trying to make me believe.
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AshDraws
I've never been to a therapist and never will until I get the money to go myself, my parents don't care if I have anything and will just say oh no it's adhd, you don't have anything to be depressed about. Yes both my mother and brother have it but that doesn't mean I do, my mom has told me only two signs that point to me having adhd like getting mad easily and losing focus, I watched one of the more recent videos (think it came out 9 days ago from today) and it was another depression video on how that if you have those 2 things it could be depression. 3 years I've had this dark thing just take me over all the time, I'm always down, I cry a lot when I am away from people, I've spoken about many times around my friends or to myself (never near my parents as I've done it once and told me that it was nonsense to think that. My school counselor did tell me that I do have stress, I only told them that I am like overwhelmed with everything at home and school and that I don't get enough sleep (they would have had to call my parents if I spoken about anything of the topic of, I have never told anyone everything other then my friends because they at least won't get mad at me for thinking that way. I get called ungrateful for it almost feels like everything, I am grateful for things even if it doesn't seem like it. Now this year I just basically smile and wave
Sorry for making this so long lol not like I have any other adult to talk to: /
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I've never been to a therapist and never will until I get the money to go myself, my parents don't care if I have anything and will just say oh no it's adhd, you don't have anything to be depressed about. Yes both my mother and brother have it but that doesn't mean I do, my mom has told me only two signs that point to me having adhd like getting mad easily and losing focus, I watched one of the more recent videos (think it came out 9 days ago from today) and it was another depression video on how that if you have those 2 things it could be depression. 3 years I've had this dark thing just take me over all the time, I'm always down, I cry a lot when I am away from people, I've spoken about many times around my friends or to myself (never near my parents as I've done it once and told me that it was nonsense to think that. My school counselor did tell me that I do have stress, I only told them that I am like overwhelmed with everything at home and school and that I don't get enough sleep (they would have had to call my parents if I spoken about anything of the topic of, I have never told anyone everything other then my friends because they at least won't get mad at me for thinking that way. I get called ungrateful for it almost feels like everything, I am grateful for things even if it doesn't seem like it. Now this year I just basically smile and wave
Sorry for making this so long lol not like I have any other adult to talk to: /
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Tibbles
While I relate with nearly all of the symptoms in most of these types of videos, I still dont know if I feel emotionally unstable. Most times I feel apathetic) or empty and cant really feel stimulated for any long period of time. Whenever I feel stimulated, I usually force myself to dampen the feelings, with the reason usually being that I dont deserve to be this happy and it hurts a lot at first but I guess its become normal now. Whenever someone tries to cheer me up, nowadays it just feels very annoying whenever they ask to Change your mindset, Compare yourself to those with more problems, You should try to feel more grateful for your situation. I honestly just cant think about my feelings properly anymore.
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While I relate with nearly all of the symptoms in most of these types of videos, I still dont know if I feel emotionally unstable. Most times I feel apathetic) or empty and cant really feel stimulated for any long period of time. Whenever I feel stimulated, I usually force myself to dampen the feelings, with the reason usually being that I dont deserve to be this happy and it hurts a lot at first but I guess its become normal now. Whenever someone tries to cheer me up, nowadays it just feels very annoying whenever they ask to Change your mindset, Compare yourself to those with more problems, You should try to feel more grateful for your situation. I honestly just cant think about my feelings properly anymore.
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BlankGuard_912
ok Srry to bother you but after watching this video um how do I put this, I feel this way and for a while know. I dont bring this up with my loved ones because I dont want them to worry. I normally feel this way at my school and other places because I sorta do get picked on. I wont get into too much detail but I dont look forward to anything but Im not lazy or ungrateful. I just dont know Im depressed. When my parents or loved ones ask if Im alright I lie the majority of the time. I would like to know if I have depression pls. Srry 4 bothering you.
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ok Srry to bother you but after watching this video um how do I put this, I feel this way and for a while know. I dont bring this up with my loved ones because I dont want them to worry. I normally feel this way at my school and other places because I sorta do get picked on. I wont get into too much detail but I dont look forward to anything but Im not lazy or ungrateful. I just dont know Im depressed. When my parents or loved ones ask if Im alright I lie the majority of the time. I would like to know if I have depression pls. Srry 4 bothering you.
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SylarMtZ
So according to this video I've been depressed since I was like 10 years old. Now I'm 30 and I decided to spend 2000 bucks just to know that I will always be feeling like that and I can't escape my trapping way of thinking. And my opinion after discovering that I am not the only one is that some peopole just can't find their path in THIS messed up world no matter what they try. We will never have the strenght to try for good and we will always feel like choking at some point. we didn't ask for any of this pain, so see you mates, in another existence.
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So according to this video I've been depressed since I was like 10 years old. Now I'm 30 and I decided to spend 2000 bucks just to know that I will always be feeling like that and I can't escape my trapping way of thinking. And my opinion after discovering that I am not the only one is that some peopole just can't find their path in THIS messed up world no matter what they try. We will never have the strenght to try for good and we will always feel like choking at some point. we didn't ask for any of this pain, so see you mates, in another existence.
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Gerda-Lisette
Is it bad if I can relate to all of those signs? I mean I feel guilty about basically everything I do or don't do, I'm like super self conscious, I don't feel anything while doing things that I once loved the most, I also have these moments when I feel like really angry, irritated or I burst out crying out of nowhere and I feel rlly lonely even tho I know i have friends. Plzz can u give me any advice? My mom doesn't understand me so she always says that I'll get over it soon but this has been going on for three years strait.
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Is it bad if I can relate to all of those signs? I mean I feel guilty about basically everything I do or don't do, I'm like super self conscious, I don't feel anything while doing things that I once loved the most, I also have these moments when I feel like really angry, irritated or I burst out crying out of nowhere and I feel rlly lonely even tho I know i have friends. Plzz can u give me any advice? My mom doesn't understand me so she always says that I'll get over it soon but this has been going on for three years strait.
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Annabelle
I have a question, if I get sad over people mistaking something for something and sometimes even cry, or if I get sad people step on grass am I depresssd? Oh and if I get angry and basically yell for and odd reason or for a very little reason, do I have anger issues?
I noticed that was two questions lol.
Oof another question, sorry, if I am sad bc of someone or something is it heartbreak, depression, or normal?
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I have a question, if I get sad over people mistaking something for something and sometimes even cry, or if I get sad people step on grass am I depresssd? Oh and if I get angry and basically yell for and odd reason or for a very little reason, do I have anger issues?
I noticed that was two questions lol.
Oof another question, sorry, if I am sad bc of someone or something is it heartbreak, depression, or normal?
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Tsukasa
You are all doing an awesome job, thank you for bringing the topics forward. which people usually don't talk about.
While I personally don't watch much due to reasons like work, depression (sometimes hearing about it makes me feel worse XD. I appreciate what you are doing and I hope a lot of people, especially those who are not having any mental illness as they are the ones who understand the least.
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You are all doing an awesome job, thank you for bringing the topics forward. which people usually don't talk about.
While I personally don't watch much due to reasons like work, depression (sometimes hearing about it makes me feel worse XD. I appreciate what you are doing and I hope a lot of people, especially those who are not having any mental illness as they are the ones who understand the least.
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Kwowka
dsmp references coz my coping mechanism is convincing myself i watch these to look for references and not because i genuinely relate to it:
0: 49 ranboo dream smile
1: 01 idk i get revivebur vibes
3: 04 hardcore hearts (3 of them)
3: 04 as well: discs framed on the wall
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dsmp references coz my coping mechanism is convincing myself i watch these to look for references and not because i genuinely relate to it:
0: 49 ranboo dream smile
1: 01 idk i get revivebur vibes
3: 04 hardcore hearts (3 of them)
3: 04 as well: discs framed on the wall
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Alice
I dont know if this is related to depression but I get angry so more often. When I usually get mad, I feel regret and look down on myself. Ive been feeling less happy about my days. Sucks when you cant focus on mental health because of school.
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I dont know if this is related to depression but I get angry so more often. When I usually get mad, I feel regret and look down on myself. Ive been feeling less happy about my days. Sucks when you cant focus on mental health because of school.
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Ryouma
Mine made me felt so numb. There's one time that a boiling hot water accidentally poured at me and I didn't feel anything, but then it eventually turned into something far more dangerous and I still have the scars from those cuts
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Mine made me felt so numb. There's one time that a boiling hot water accidentally poured at me and I didn't feel anything, but then it eventually turned into something far more dangerous and I still have the scars from those cuts
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Morgan
I am diagnosed with depression, ADHD, and a mood disorder sometimes its hard to tell if Im depressed or having a mood episode
Its not fun but I try to be happy and focus on good things love your vids btw!
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I am diagnosed with depression, ADHD, and a mood disorder sometimes its hard to tell if Im depressed or having a mood episode
Its not fun but I try to be happy and focus on good things love your vids btw!
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Teresa
It's really hard for me because in hindsight I've struggled with depression for as long as I can remember. It's just bad enough that I can't hide anymore now. It feels like I'm just. Suddenly not good enough
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It's really hard for me because in hindsight I've struggled with depression for as long as I can remember. It's just bad enough that I can't hide anymore now. It feels like I'm just. Suddenly not good enough
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DJ
I hope everyone can remember that these are explanations and not excuses. You cant keep hurting people and blaming it on your mental health. You have a responsibility to get better for the ones you love. Period.
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I hope everyone can remember that these are explanations and not excuses. You cant keep hurting people and blaming it on your mental health. You have a responsibility to get better for the ones you love. Period.
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FrostLightningX
The biggest problem is that anyone who would be willing to help can't do it while those who can affect you are not obligated to care A. K. A. things being out of your reach. That's at least my case
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The biggest problem is that anyone who would be willing to help can't do it while those who can affect you are not obligated to care A. K. A. things being out of your reach. That's at least my case
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cool
This is what happened during Christmas time last year and my family thought I was ungrateful for my gifts and I felt ungrateful but its was actually depression and I didnt figure it out until later
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This is what happened during Christmas time last year and my family thought I was ungrateful for my gifts and I felt ungrateful but its was actually depression and I didnt figure it out until later
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El
Much encouragement and strength to those who are suffering from this disease, if you read this think that there are more people going through the same thing and trying to get ahead.
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Much encouragement and strength to those who are suffering from this disease, if you read this think that there are more people going through the same thing and trying to get ahead.
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Carolcrossing
My mom always calls me ungrateful and my parents say if I say something it counts as talking back and they wonder why I dont know how to stick up for my self
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My mom always calls me ungrateful and my parents say if I say something it counts as talking back and they wonder why I dont know how to stick up for my self
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Ray
When depressed people are deemed as ungrateful,
and ungrateful people who think they're depressed.
(Ungratefulness can also lead to depression tho)
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When depressed people are deemed as ungrateful,
and ungrateful people who think they're depressed.
(Ungratefulness can also lead to depression tho)
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im
This is comforting and encouraging to realise that I DO have depression and I'm not just feeling bad for being a downer or acting ungrateful.
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This is comforting and encouraging to realise that I DO have depression and I'm not just feeling bad for being a downer or acting ungrateful.
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Jeni
This video hits hard for me. I've felt this way the last one year and never knew what it was until I decided to seek help a month ago
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This video hits hard for me. I've felt this way the last one year and never knew what it was until I decided to seek help a month ago
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Bostaplayz
My depression has led to me getting sick AND I HATE IT! I FEEL SO HORRIBLE EVERYDAY I JUST WANT IT TO END: (
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My depression has led to me getting sick AND I HATE IT! I FEEL SO HORRIBLE EVERYDAY I JUST WANT IT TO END: (
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arii
I'm not an attention seeker. but sometimes i really need the comfort but everyone just notice and ignore it
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I'm not an attention seeker. but sometimes i really need the comfort but everyone just notice and ignore it
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